A THREESOME; FOR THE FIRST TIME
After I got home, Master and I spoke on the phone two and three times a day. We had our Internet time in the evenings. We would go to the chat room we had first met and talk to the many friends we had there. We never did scenes because it hurt too much remembering our real time together. It seemed to make us miss each other more. During our evening visits on line we became friends with a Domina, Master more so then me because He talked to her late in the evening.
Master started talking more and more about me being with another woman. I had gotten past the point of closing my ears and would at least talk to Master about these things. The next thing He spoke of was being together as a threesome with someone else. I was nervous as I talked to Him about these things but at least I could ask Him questions.
I didn’t always understand the answers that Master gave me regarding this. So I went to my dearest friend who was a Domina. I told Her of the topics that Master was talking to me about. I confided in Her telling Her how frightened I was that I was losing Him. I asked why else would He want this? It always boiled down to where Master would be fucking someone else.
She was so very patient and understanding with me. She knew my history of strong abandonment issues. She assured me how very much my Master loved me by all the things He has done for me. Hearing Her say this warmed my heart. Then She began to explain about the power exchange. When someone gives another the power to do these things to them there is a power exchange between the couple. I half way understood because of the book I read, but it still didn’t make me like the fact Master was talking about actually doing it.
One night I came online looking for my Domina friend. Luckily She was there because I had myself in a terrible state of mind. I was crying as I told her I just got done talking to Master and He was determined on having a meeting between He, I and this other Domina that He had been talking to. Not only were we meeting with her, He wanted to turn me over to her where she was my Dominant. This hurt me deeper then the thought of all of us being together. No one had ever dominated me except Master. Her being a woman made it worse. I didn’t trust women and didn’t like most of them because of the games they play.
My Domina friend was so calm as She spoke to me. She explained how much power I would be giving my Master if I did this for Him. When I cried I didn’t understand about Him turning me over to her. She explained that was the ultimate power exchange that I could give my Master. She told me She could understand how proud He would be of me, seeing me giving my submission to another Dominant because He told me to. It wouldn’t matter if it were a Dom or Domina because Master would feel the same pride in His submissive. She added, “I only know the pride I would feel if you were my submissive and done such a thing for Me.”
Her words always soothed me and made me feel less scared. I found at times I looked for Her approval just like I did with Master. I think it was because of the respect that I had and still have for Her.
I wasn’t convinced yet but I always listened Her and thought over everything She told me. Usually when I calmed down it started to make sense to me. It was no different this time. I never looked at Master being proud because I did this for Him. I thought how I would feel experiencing such a thing. I also had visions of Master fucking her in front of me. I felt Master didn’t love me by asking me to do this for Him. I had slipped back into the vanilla world of thinking. I was confusing myself by thinking love and sex go hand and hand. I thought you could not have one without the other. I finally began to understand.
I was still very uncomfortable with the thought of it happening but I at least opened my eyes and accepted the arrangement. There was one thing I didn’t really understand. Master was setting this up more for me than Him. He wanted me to grow in the lifestyle and was trying to do it with someone He considered safe and experienced. I never saw or understood this until much later in our relationship.
Master set up times for He, she and I to talk together. I was to ask questions and believe me, I did. I was not bashful because I wanted to know everything. The Domina got flustered with me a couple of times because she was not used to my type of submissive. I was a submissive that questioned everything and wanted details. Master would quickly step in.
I proceeded to get to know the Domina the next few weeks. I became close with her sharing a few things. Never did I begin to have the relationship with her that I had with my Domina friend because the trust was not there between us. I listened to what she said but there was always a doubt in my mind about the truth behind all that she talked about. I didn’t dare say anything to Master because He would think I was just jealous and trying to get out of this meeting with her. So I kept my mouth shut and just listened to her.
We set up the meeting to be in Atlanta. It was a central location for all of us. I try to help my Master with expenses if I’m able. This visit I told Master I would arrange for the room and take care of that expense. I spent hours on the Internet until I located the perfect place. It was a Bed and Breakfast Inn but it had one cottage that set by itself in the back yard in a garden area. It was beautiful from the pictures. Had a living room with fireplace, a king-size bed, refrigerator and microwave and a beautiful Jacuzzi that could seat four. It was decorated with antiques and had plush furniture in the living room area. It even had a front porch with rockers on it. It looked like something out of House and Gardens magazine it was so pretty.
I was at the airport to meet Master and we took a taxi to our cottage. He was so impressed with how it looked. I had gotten there early enough to set up everything. Master had grown used to the way I would have things ready for us. I don’t believe He ever worried that I would leave anything undone. As soon as we got there, Master took me, making passionate love.
Later we got in the Jacuzzi for about an hour talking and relaxing. We talked about the next two days of having the Domina with us. He knew I was very nervous. He comforted me in everyway possible, trying to calm me. He tried to explain what might happen. He told me He wanted me to kiss her on her lips to let her know that I approved of this meeting. I said, “On the lips Master! I can’t Master, I just can’t but I will on the cheek. Anything but the lips Master please!”
I have to laugh now because I really don’t know why kissing her on the lips seemed so terrible to me. I had sense enough to know much more then that would probably happen before the weekend was over. But it was a real hang up I had. Master walked me through it like He has so many things.
She was due in noon the next day. She was supposed to call us from the airport and take the taxi to the Inn. At 12:30 Master went out on the front porch of the big house to wait for her, in case she had forgotten to call. She had all the information as to where we were staying. While cleaning the room and making sure everything was perfect. I started to think I was crazy. I would hear the song Dixie playing very softly every once in awhile. I could barely hear it but when it came on I looked all over that room for it. I needed something in my purse so I went to the closet to get it and suddenly the song was playing. It was coming from my purse. It was the new cell phone I had gotten the day before. Apparently they had set the ringer to play Dixie. I hadn’t gotten any calls so I didn’t realize this. I thought it would ring like my other cell phone did. I took it out to find I had half dozen calls listed on it. It was the Domina trying to reach us from the airport. I got Master and explained to Him what had happened. I felt so foolish for not knowing it was my phone all that time.
As it turned out, she wanted to surprise us so she had taken a taxi. She told the taxi driver she had to change clothes in the taxi. She changed all right; all she had on was a fish net dress that you could see everything through and a jacket to cover her top. She had gone up to the main house of the Inn asking where our cottage was. The only problem was she was at the wrong Inn! The taxi driver let her off at an Inn a few blocks from our's, never realizing the mistake he had made. The phone calls I had missed were her trying to find out why we weren’t there because she still thought she was at the right place.
Finally my phone rang again and I answered it hearing an elderly woman that was obviously flustered on the other end. She was telling me she had this half naked woman there trying to insist that we had a room at her Inn. I calmed the Innkeeper down enough where I could find out the address and we headed right over.
The Domina came out of the Inn and Master and I nearly died laughing. No wonder this little old lady was flustered. The Domina might as well have been nude with what she was wearing. She got in the car and all three of us laughed on the way back to our cottage. The surprise she had for us had backfired and surprised her!
We got back to the room and spent time getting to know one another. She seemed nice enough but I found some of the things she said disturbing. She talked about her husband and the problems she had with him. He supposedly drank too much. She said she made sure he all the booze he wanted because one day he would die because of his drinking and she would get the insurance. Then she laughed. Chills ran through me as I listened to her wondering how anyone could be so cold hearted. I wasn’t in love with my husband but there is no way I could feel that way about anyone let alone someone I still lived with.
Master and she took a bath in the Jacuzzi while I made up some plates with fruits on one and another with cheeses and ham. I had placed different crackers, spreads and nuts on the coffee table. After I was done Master asked if I wanted to get in the tub with them but I declined, pretending to have to finish up some things around the room.
Once they were done with their bath, we all sat around the living room munching on the things I had made. We later decided to order in for dinner because she was tired from the flight and didn’t feel like dressing up to go out.
After we had dinner Master and she decided to play with me. Master strung rope up and over the beams tying my hands and arms up over my head. He then turned me over to the Domina. She was into bondage more then the whipping so she bound my breasts and played with me. I was so nervous at first when I felt her touch I didn’t know how to act. Then I made up my mind I would close my eyes and pretend it was Master doing these things to me. It worked real well during this but it was very different once I was untied.
Master untied me and told me to get onto the bed. He turned to the Domina telling her I was now under her care. She proceeded to caress and fondle me all over. I remember how scared I was and unsure of how I should respond. Master would hold my hand and whisper to me to relax and just go with the feelings I was experiencing. Hearing Master's voice calmed me some as I squeezed His hand tightly. Sometime during this I began to stop thinking about who was doing this to me and enjoy the act that was happening.
I will never forget the next experience or the feelings that ran through my body. Master got in bed and started to play with the Domina. I didn’t know what to do or how to play with three of us being together. I didn’t know where to start or how to include myself in what was happening.
I lay there watching as my Master got on top of her fucking her for the first time. I thought I would die watching as my heart ached. I finally turned on my side so I would not have to see what was happening. Still I felt the bed and knew each thing my Master was probably doing to her. Never once did she or He reach over to touch me or try to include me. Both were used to these scenes where others just participated, forgetting I was not experienced or trained for a threesome. All we had done was talk about things that might happen between us.
Once they were done playing it was late and we all went to bed. The Domina started insisting on laying in-between Master and myself. Master laughed and told her ok. I lay there desperately needing my Master to hold me and tell me He still loved me. The thoughts that were running through my mind were causing me such deep pain. I had convinced myself by now that He had fallen in love with her. It was clear because He no longer wanted to be next to me.
She made sure she woke my Master in the middle of the night, going down on Him and they fucked again. I lay there pretending I was asleep while I felt the bed moving, tears ran down my cheeks. I didn’t sleep the whole night through I just laid there thinking. I would turn seeing my Master’s arm around her as He slept.
Early the next morning I got out of bed to get dressed. By the time I got out of the bath they were going at it again. I started out the door as I heard Master ask where I was going. I told Him I was going to the main house for coffee. As I went to close the door I hear the Domina say, “Tell Your princess to bring us breakfast in bed.” By now I was so mad I didn’t worry about my submissive nature. I opened the door and said, “The best thing the both of you can do is get your asses up and over there if you want breakfast. They serve to 10 am. You can rest assured I‘m damn well not bringing any breakfast back with me.” I slammed the door hearing Master calling my name.
I went in the dining room and sat at the main table. As in any Bed and Breakfast, there were people visiting from all over. There was ideal chatter back and forth about where everyone was from. My thoughts were any place but there. I picked up the morning paper and pretended to read it. I was doing anything I could to stall and not have to go back to the room. They were closing the dining room so I got up and walked out in the garden area in front of the cottage.
I remember thinking about everything that had happened the night before. How I wished I had taken my purse with my keys so I could have gotten in my car and just driven around for awhile. Suddenly I heard Master calling my name and I pretend I didn’t hear Him. He got louder so I looked over and there He is standing on the porch nude yelling at me to come in. I stood there and heard, “Don’t make me come after you princess!” I was smart enough to know I’d better go back or I would have one naked Master coming across the garden pulling me back there. Things were bad enough I didn’t need the whole Inn seeing something like that.
I went back in the room and Master started yelling at me for leaving when He was still talking to me. I heard about my telling them they could get their own breakfast. I stood there not saying a word just glaring at Him. Now the Domina puffed up thinking she could get her two cents in saying, “You know she could always sleep on the couch if she wants to act this way!” I suddenly got fire in my eyes and had all the voice I needed saying, “Let me tell you one fucking thing. As long as this submissive is paying damn close to $600.00 for this cottage, she will sleep where ever the hell she wants! Is that clear enough for you?”
She quickly backed down. No longer did she feel she could dominate me because I had intimidated her for a change. Then I looked at my Master with a look that almost dared Him to stick up for her. I was furious at them both and the whole situation that was happening around me. She decided she needed to go for a smoke and walked outside.
Master asked what was going on with me. I was more than glad to tell Him at this point. I told Him how I felt when He fucked her. I was left like an outsider with not even a touch from either of them. It was like I didn’t exist. Then He jumped back at me saying that I was supposed to just jump in and be part of it but I didn’t do anything! I started crying as I told Him that I didn’t know how. I didn’t know what things I was suppose to do or when. I wanted to please Him and be part of the threesome but I couldn’t just do it on my own. I didn’t know how to even start.
I told Him I felt that He was in love with her and I meant nothing to Him now. He held me tight as I cried. He said, “princess, princess, princess when will you ever believe that no one will ever take your place in my heart. I am simply fucking her as she is Me and we are enjoying it. I have no feelings for her. If a threesome can happen between us again fine. If I never see her again after that’s fine too.” Then I said, “But Master You let her decide on things that happen. It’s like she is the head Dominant when You are. Just like her being between You and me in bed. When You talked to me about this arrangement You told me that You would be in the middle next to me always. Now I have that cold-hearted bitch next to me instead. What ever she whines to You about we all end up doing. I can’t stand this feeling of You not being my Master.”
Master held me softly telling me things would be different and He understood. He told me He was so proud of all I had accomplished so far this trip and then we made beautiful tender love. I left the fucking for her, it was all she wanted or so I thought at the time.
The Domina came back in the cottage after things had simmered down. She decided she wanted to go to the store and get some things. Master said He was tired and told me to take her. I was now acting as a submissive and things were settled down between us. She went to the store with me, all though I’m sure this was not what she had in mind. She thought Master and I would still be fighting and she would get to go with Him alone. We talked as we drove around trying to find a store. She asked questions about Master and me. I shared what I felt safe in sharing which was very little information. We got back to the cottage and rested awhile before we had to get dressed again. Master wanted to take us to dinner and to the BD/SM club for the evening.
Master and I had found a restaurant that we liked the last time we had gone to the club. It was fairly close to the club and had very good food. It was nicely decorated with hard wood floors and crystal chandlers. They were crowded so they sat us in the lounge area where we ordered some drinks. In about a half hour we were seated. The Domina picked up the menu and said, “Oh my God! This is a chain restaurant!” Master and I had no idea it was a chain. But couldn’t understand her shock seeing it was a fairly well priced menu if it was a chain restaurant. It wasn’t like we had taken her to Burger King. There were people in here dressed in evening cloths. She starts laughing and I just look over to Master with a questioning look. He had the most disgusting look on His face when He asked if she preferred to go somewhere else. She half laughed and said that this would be all right seeing we were at this place and finally sitting down. It was like she was doing us a favor by lowering herself to this standard. I could not believe that anyone could be this rude and crude when Master was paying for everything for her entire visit.
After dinner we went to the club finding it was closed to everyone but men that night. They were having an all men’s evening. They told us of the other BD/SM club that had just moved into a new place. We got the address and we drove and drove trying to find it. We stopped getting directions numerous times. We got to the address and we could find nothing. It was a night to remember with the Domina and Master trying to give me directions to a place neither knew how to get to. The Domina sat up front with me and started to get smart mouthed with Master. The Master I knew finally came out. He told her in no uncertain terms what He thought and how it was going to be. For the first time since her visit her smart mouth stayed shut.
We never did find the club that night and I was never happier to see a room, as I was when I got to the cottage. I was exhausted from no sleep the night before and the hectic night we just had. I don’t think there was a part of Atlanta we didn’t see that night. The Domina plunked herself in the middle of the bed. Master came out of the bath and told her to move over so He could get it. She started to say something when Master cut her off telling her, “I said to move over. I’m sleeping in the middle next to princess.”
Master had His arm around me and I was just about asleep when I felt her hand go to His cock. I was so tired that I didn’t care if they fucked the whole night. I fell asleep as she went down on Him, sucking Him for all she was worth. The next morning I got up early again but this time I whispered in Master’s ear, “Master I’m going for breakfast, so if Your going to fuck her one last time You better wake up. She has to be packed and in the taxi by 9am.” He knew I was not trying to be smart this time. I sincerely meant what I said to Him as His submissive. If He wanted her one last time it was fine with me but I did not want to be part of it any longer.
I still did not voice my opinion of her to Master. I felt she was a user, a sneak and a liar, but these were all feeling I had and nothing that I could prove to Master. She lacked respect for my Master unless He put her in her place. Her actions were very uncommon of most Dom/Domina. They normally respect one another unless given a reason not to.
I came back to the room and acted perfectly fine with the Domina. Master had finished with her and was getting dressed. I had given her gifts when she had first gotten there and I helped her pack them and the rest of her things. I talked to her as if nothing was wrong and we kidded about the weekend we all had together. Master helped her out with her luggage and waited till the taxi got there to pick her up. When Master returned I had the gift that she had brought for me sitting on the table. It was a planter with people carved around it holding hands. I asked Master if He wanted to take it home with Him. He told me of course not. It was my gift. I told Him He could take it home, give it to the Innkeeper or leave it behind but I wasn’t taking it anywhere. There was nothing that I ever wanted to remind me of her or her visit. He decided to give it to the Innkeeper who was so pleased at getting a gift.
Master and I had one last night together before He had to leave. We played some and made love but we also talked and talked. He thanked me for doing what I had done for Him and said how proud of me He was. He assured me again and again of His love for me. He wanted me to understand there was no love between Him and this Domina. We became closer that night then we had ever been before. It’s very hard to explain what happens after an experience like this. I knew that there was a closer feeling with my Master yet couldn’t understand how this was possible when there was someone else that had been with Him.
I have written about this chapter with the feelings that I had at the time all this was happening. Time has now past and I can see things in a different light. I now realize I learned much from that visit and am thankful that this Domina spent time with us. I got past my fear of another woman touching me. I still did not have the desire to be with another woman but I knew I could do it again if I had to. I had experienced another being my Dominant for a short period of time. I now knew what it was to submit to someone besides my Master. I had done things I never dreamed I would be strong enough to do and survived them. Later on in Master and my relationship I was to learn that not everyone in a three-way playtime was like this Domina. I now realize it’s very important to experience these bad times along with the good. This holds true in all you do. The bad times make you appreciate the good times all the more.
Master left for California and I made the long drive home. By the time I reached the house Master was on the phone wanting to know if I could come out there for a few weeks. He felt we needed this time together. I made plans to leave in a week to go back to California for a visit. When I left I was not sure how long I would be, my business determined the length of my stays. If it got busy I would need to head home quicker but I knew I had at least four weeks I could spend with my Master. I had put the thoughts of the Domina far behind me, which proved to be a foolish thing to do. It was then I learned the meaning of Masters saying that I had heard Him say so many times. “Keep your enemies close and friends at bay…”
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